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Uh oh ridiculously tiny paycheck strikes again


I wanna talk about mental health and suicide from both outside and inside perspective since here it's safe to talk about and partially in responce to @idioticsilverware 's original post but


what the hell is even the point. i'm not gonna prevent anything, help anyone in the long run. so just talking about this seems like pretenting i am able to help. and i don't wanna pretend. i don't wanna believe in something that isn't true. again. this is probably just a temporary mood (everything is temporary) but this just makes a lot of stuff i used to do pointless.


what the fuck is up with fall and triggers


i don't wanna think speak feel or do anything anymore. there's just no way i should.


блять ну кто ж знал.


блять ну кто ж знал.


я вот знала, что если у меня все морально налаживается, по закону жанра что-то на меня да ёбнется, ну так и случилось


я вот знала, что если у меня все морально налаживается, по закону жанра что-то на меня да ёбнется, ну так и случилось


охеренно день начался


ITS DISCO TIME UNDER MY WINDOW SOMEBODY IS ABOUT TO DIE


I WAQNNA SLEEP LE T ME SHOWER!


babushka reblogged babushka
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i cannot do this (or anything) again. i can't be responsible for people's lives and health again please don't make me it hurts.


babushka -

some things will always be painful for me no matter how hard i repress it no matter how "for the greater good" it is, no matter how many people will actually benefit from this, these things are still gonna be painful for me and i doubt it will stop


babushka -

but i CANT because im not SUPPOSED TO becaue its the BARE MINIMUM THAT EVERYONE DOES because im better off than everyone else so i am supposed to fix everything!!!


babushka reblogged babushka
babushka -

i cannot do this (or anything) again. i can't be responsible for people's lives and health again please don't make me it hurts.


babushka -

some things will always be painful for me no matter how hard i repress it no matter how "for the greater good" it is, no matter how many people will actually benefit from this, these things are still gonna be painful for me and i doubt it will stop


i cannot do this (or anything) again. i can't be responsible for people's lives and health again please don't make me it hurts.


Good morning! My heart is breaking from the in side


re-reading Misery by Stephen King makes me think of my abuserrrrrr


there's basically a new war every month.


probably time to panic because I'm seriously sick, with god knows what, this will make me easier to control again, might mess up my doctors appointment which is crucial, and I also need surgery which will happen god knows when. since the second wave is coming and healthcare is going to be overwhelmed again. and I still haven't dealt with my previous trauma. god knows what else is going to mess me in the next few days.


АААААААААААААААААААААААААААААААААААА


another day another government-sponsored hate crime in the name of family values


bad brain!! shoo, shoo!! get back!!! back to our regulary scheduled grieving process!!


real trauma hours folks


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