succulent 2 is fucking dead
i don't have any hopes for the other three
sorry russian freedom of speech can't come to the phone right now... why?... oh 'cause she's dead..
harudadus outside are really tryna dig under my house so time to wake uuuup!!
goooooood morning yall my therapist is sick so i'm going to be posting all day long! GOD do i have feelings thoughts and emotions i want to share, and god knows i am BACK on my BS and want to communicate somewhat.
me at 3am: just trying to sleep
my computers and my printer in unison, making machine noises and flashing white screen at me for no apparent reason: AWAKEN AWAKEN AWAKEN AWAKEN
Im temporarily back on my BS but I'm just gonna start a new post for that
I find eldritch horror biology intriguing because. a) I rely on the theory that the reason they look so bizarre is that they, well, are, and we can't even perceive them properly, they might be shifting dimensions and shit and we won't even know it. b) if an ant saw a hairy human leg up close, an ant would just assume humans are covered in either tentacles or antennae, and this ant would sit around wondering why on earth do we need so many and how are we moving them all at the same time, when in reality we have no control over our body hair and we need it for, uhm? i don't remember exactly what, maybe even protection from ants?
i mean it's just an endless field of research to think about what kind of evolutionary role would having 9000 eyes play. and the elder gods are biologically connected somehow, considering how the planets they were born on are known and how there's that. giant floating eye thing that flies in space, looks at other planets, and awakens the creatures on them or something
Got an existential horror moment today from going to the mall. God. There's PEOPLE out there and life has been happening this whole time. The entire mall is different. They've been building buildings outside. Setting trends. And now they're just THERE IN MASSES. Perceiving me. Having social norms and stuff. Having an option to interact with me. And there's all this STUFF outside. There are things happening and it was all without me, and it continues just fine regardless if I am there physically or not
I'm going riiiight back under my blanket, thanks.
I. Forgot how being excited over something positive actually feels. I didn't feel it when moving because it was so spontaneous and i was so stressed.
adapting to using public transport again after isolation is. a thing. if you're like me, please put extra time in your public transport journey planning because you might need it.
people who like my posts i cannot thank you enough for letting me be my true authentic self on here and not feel awkward. this seriously got me through this week
My sexuality is when someone says the word lust in power metal songs
okay im waking up, i need to process yesterday, and hooo lyyyy, where do i even begin.
i am at rank 18 in genshin impact so that's good, i get to have a new chapter of the main quest to access so that's? good?
i've finished another "urgent task". I Am Now Death
if anything and i mean ANYTHING else happens today i am going to scream
my coworkers had covid and didn't tell anyone??? ?? and didn't get sick leaves??
я в АХУЕ
suddenly there's a bunch of snacks and i get a new monitor...i am LOSING IT YALL
There's another Putin's palace i'm mcfreaking losing it what the fuck is this week what the fuck
Steamed Hams is on genius lyrics what the everloving -
This week has been an emotional rollercoaster. Good Lord.
so the news of the year is that i'm prooooobably keeping my job (yes the one that promises to fire me since like January)
i am kinda relieved despite the fact i'd still have to leave because money is an issue but like
GOD i'm not even feeling anything about this i just don't know what's happening anymore
can we like appreciate the fact that I'm using an eldritch horror entity to escape from reality i'm currently in
Speaking of water, that reminds me of a story. In seventh grade we've learned about the Loreley legend and her poem. I couldn't let go of it, I had this weird feeling of longing.
Later that year i actually got a chance to visit Germany and travel on a ship across the river Rein, right where the Loreley statue is. We didn't get close to it because, well, we would die, the waters around that rock are actually very dangerous. I got, like, a glimpse of her. But that feeling stopped.
So I guess she didn't intend to kill me. She just wanted to see me. Maybe if i was there alone in a tiny boat I would have forgotten about the danger, tried to look closer at her and met my doom in the water. Also, let's face it, that's a probable scenario in my case, regardless of the river, i'm just careless with stuff sometimes. But maybe nothing would have happened. She was a statue after all, and she didn't sing. We've put on a song on that ship, it was romance based on her legend, so this time humanity sang for her, in a way. And yeah, that's the story for today.
also yes regarding the cthulhu thing, not only am i a monster lover i am also a self-shipper who has all sorts of cute headcanons and stuff. like. also the fact that i've recently been drawn to the sea. it makes a lot of sence in this context