babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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this evening messed me the f up i don't want it to be like this. i wanna be ok.


babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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the day i stop oversharing online is the day my blog is used against me in court


babushka(he/she, он/она/)
babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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babushka

I wanna go back but im kinda barely standing

babushka

changed clothes, look like monk from other planet, grabbed everything that counts as a weapon


babushka

they aren't there, obviously.


babushka

scared 3 girls. I wanna go home but then i'll probably just scare more ppl.

It's getting cold and dark.


babushka

i hate myself. I hate this. I just want to go home. Changing my clothes again


babushka

IM HOME i hope i didn't catch a cold i hate everything. I just wanted to help.



babushka(he/she, он/она/)
babushka(he/she, он/она/)
Time ago
babushka

I wanna go back but im kinda barely standing

babushka

changed clothes, look like monk from other planet, grabbed everything that counts as a weapon


babushka

they aren't there, obviously.


babushka

scared 3 girls. I wanna go home but then i'll probably just scare more ppl.

It's getting cold and dark.


babushka

i hate myself. I hate this. I just want to go home. Changing my clothes again



babushka(he/she, он/она/)
babushka(he/she, он/она/)
Time ago
babushka

I wanna go back but im kinda barely standing

babushka

changed clothes, look like monk from other planet, grabbed everything that counts as a weapon


babushka

they aren't there, obviously.


babushka

scared 3 girls. I wanna go home but then i'll probably just scare more ppl.

It's getting cold and dark.



babushka(he/she, он/она/)
babushka(he/she, он/она/)
Time ago
babushka

I wanna go back but im kinda barely standing

babushka

changed clothes, look like monk from other planet, grabbed everything that counts as a weapon


babushka

they aren't there, obviously.



babushka(he/she, он/она/)
babushka(he/she, он/она/)
Time ago
babushka

I wanna go back but im kinda barely standing

babushka

changed clothes, look like monk from other planet, grabbed everything that counts as a weapon



babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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I wanna go back but im kinda barely standing


babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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Guess who just saw a bad thing and did nothing because their family didn't want them to get involved


babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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After I met Ella Musk in the game the whole Hilichurl thing got SO MUCH WORSE.

They're, like, fully sentient. Like, why are humans even attacking them. It's not like they're aggressive unless prompted or controlled by Abyss Mages. The kinghts are just like "we can't have them living near the city" WHY?? WHY CAN'T YOU HAVE THEM?? Like this alone is bad on so many levels and the fact they've referenced their dances from native american people just makes this 10000 worse.

Also I know this is a game. I am not opposed to, like, attacking slimes because they often attack first and are barely sentient and are dangerous if kept alive because elemental energy and whatnot.


babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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realising things about bpd, identifying an overwhelmingly intense fear of abandonment linked closely to everything i do and everyone i touch and shaping my entire world into a world of misery. always there, making me so afraid that i push away my deepest desires, so afraid to even recognise that this fear exists. as i tried to understand myself deeper, my mind built barriers around it, stopped me from even trying to guess what that thing was until i felt heavy physical pain in my chest which has forced me to abandon the search for that invisible enemy, always present,, always shaping every aspect of my life.

well now that i've named it and recognised it it looks like it????

s

H

U

T

S

UP?

do i have to reinvent my whole life again and grief for everything that was lost to that fear? am i like that robot who became human by believing he can now be classified as one?

the fucking year of realising things strikes again!


babushka(he/she, он/она/)
babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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babushka

Im gonna make pancakes, i'm gonna make BLINS

babushka

.love the smell of 1024 pancakes in the morning, smells like victory


babushka

I also made, and I can't believe that's how English people write this, shchi

that's a traditional Russian soup consisting of mostly cabbage, started out as poor people food, now beloved by everyone


babushka

The two-letter word щи contains the letter щ, which is absent in most non-Cyrillic alphabets and is transcribed into them with several letters. In German, щи becomes eight letters, Schtschi.[5][6]

Germany are you okay



babushka(he/she, он/она/)
babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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babushka

Im gonna make pancakes, i'm gonna make BLINS

babushka

.love the smell of 1024 pancakes in the morning, smells like victory


babushka

I also made, and I can't believe that's how English people write this, shchi

that's a traditional Russian soup consisting of mostly cabbage, started out as poor people food, now beloved by everyone



babushka(he/she, он/она/)
babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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People are telling me that when they hear something about Russia they think of me and it's so sweet! Im honestly living for this. I might not be the best representative of Russia but... imagine not knowing me and thinking "oh that's where Putin lives" whenever you hear the word Russia


babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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I leave for ONE NIGHT!

Guess ive overwatered it. Should i pluck the leaves out


babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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Im gonna make pancakes, i'm gonna make BLINS


babushka(he/she, он/она/)
princeofdoom(he/him they/them)
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"The more you try to remember something, the more it's forgotten... Strange, isn't it?"

Java from No Follow 「game」
who?
unhelpful process gif
no follow site
twitter nonsense


babushka(he/she, он/она/)
babushka(he/she, он/она/)
Time ago
babushka

i might be addicted to pepsi dark vanilla

babushka

mier commented on this post:
is babka like one of these cartoons characters that have a candy wrapper, a fly and a silver and gold coin in their pocket?

i mean 50c is my pocket AND my bank account combined but yeah


babushka

so

um

i might have over estimated my budgeting skills so i am still poor

so if you want me to have some pepsi dark vanilla i still have my commissions open

and i draw better now



babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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my body is tired from being anxious all week so i am quiet but i see you. i see and i appreciate what i see


babushka(he/she, он/она/)
cataclysmictilde
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🏮 gift art for a friend!

oc belongs to liantreecastle!


babushka(he/she, он/она/)
jasvinfellover(She/They)
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babushka

my entire newsfeed is like "genshin impact is cancelled". should I. should I even bother posting fanart anywhere outside waterfall

jasvinfellover

Alllllright, I was originally going to write this up at work on my break but then it sunk in over time how this would probably take my whole break, if not longer, to write on my phone so here we are 5 hours later when im home.

I'm going to preface this by saying do whatever you'd like with this knowledge and no one has any grounds to give anyone shit over playing a fantasy video game when the entire fantasy genre as a whole is rife with this type of thing but no one, for the most part, goes around actively trying to cancel literally everything that is ever released that is fantasy.(for instance you don't see anyone going around telling people to stop playing Breath of the Wild) Really just be critical of the media you consume. (also it is not a bad thing that all this is being pointed out, it is always good to hold the media you consume accountable and to be aware when it's not all that great morality wise)

Oh, and feel free to question my takes(at least the ones that relate to race) as much as you'd like since im white


I'm going to go through this point by point of the complaints:

  1. Racist portrayal of PoC/general colorism
  2. The only two playable characters with noticeably darker skin (though Bennett is slightly darker than the rest of the white characters), Kaeya and Xinyan, are both seen as sneaky/aggressive/scary by other characters
  3. this is a fair enough point cause it is true, also note however that in Kaeya's case (I know less about Xinyan in general cause I don't play as her much) while people do distrust him (mainly other playable characters I've noticed, cough Diluc cough and Amber actively state something about him being sketchy off the top of my head) the whole of Mondstat adores him to the point where you got elderly women considering him to be their "top candidate for grandson-in-law"
  4. The lack of darker skinned characters as a whole (we only got one PoC from Mondstat and one from Liyue)
  5. The mashing together of 3 whole ass different cultures for Sumuru (Egypt, the entire middle east, and India)
  6. The devs blatantly using the dances of native peoples as "references" (quotes cause they are literally just the dances of native peoples) for the Hilichurls dances and Hilichurls in general
  7. Pedophilic/weird treatment of minor characters
  8. so there is apparently this NPC (i dont remember where he is in the game and when you interact with him but hes somewhere) who says something that amounts to him being in love with Flora (ya know, the kid who runs the flower shop), which is pretty fucking yikes
  9. according to some people who played the closed beta of the game, Flora, along with Ella Musk, were originally adults, not children, so the line still being in the game could be an oversight (take this as you will as it is just something I've seen being brought up with not screenshots or anything, but it would be hard to get screenshots of that considering the closed beta no longer exists and all and who would have taken screenshots of some random NPCs)
  10. Diona
  11. people apparently take issue with NPCs loving Diona for her bartending skills and find her cute for having cat ears and a tail
  12. this one i honestly dont get, like yeah sure it's kinda weird and maybe racist in-universe for people to commoditize her for having cat features but people finding her cute (the only mention of this I could find was said by her boss, Margaret, but it's entirely possible im missing other mentioned of it) for it doesn't seem that awful to me? when people in-universe call her cute it always has more of the vibe of "she's cute like my pet cat is cute" (part of the reason why in-universe it might be considered kinda racist but it's not like anyone has said it is)
  13. some people also think its weird Diona hosts private events, and charges a lot for them
  14. this one i get even less cause it isn't like people can't just rent out the whole bar for a party or something, 100% feels like people reaching to find something else to tag onto their list of issues
  15. The purposeful withholding of finished content in order to further starve the community of it in order to drive sales of microtransactions when said content is finally released (note: i have not seen proof of this, but it wouldn't surprise me)
  16. apparently both the Chasm (new zone) and Baizhu (current NPC in Liyue and future playable character) are complete and having their release date pushed back

As a conclusion I'd like to note that the gif showing the gif of the native peoples dances being used as a reference when animating the Hilichurls originally came up months ago, but it didn't blow up then like it did two days ago. This has led some people to believe that most people are just pissed with having to wait for content to be released and are using the first two points listed to make the third point seem worse ( "oh, and they're not only holding back content, but they're also being racist and pedophilic" kinda thing, this obviously doesn't invalidate the first two points though). Especially with how the day after the entire Genshin Impact tag on twitter was full of people pulling for Childe and Rosaria instead of people talking about the above issues. It's also funny in a sad kinda way that I haven't seen anyone bring up the fact that Genshin boiled down the entire country based on Russia to one of the villain groups and leaning heavily on USSR related stereotypes, but you (Babushka specifically for anyone else who decides to read this) would be better suited to pointing those out than I would (the only ones that have jumped out to me are the "Comrade" thing with Childe and how the Fatui are basically synonymous with the Snezhnayan government, but I wouldn't be terribly surprised if there are other things that have gone over my head)

Honestly it's kind of funny to me that a bunch of people thought that they could "cancel" a whole ass game/company with just this stuff alone but they aren't wrong that these things aren't a great look for the game as a whole. Which is also why the new # of just do better, is significantly better.


babushka

Oh I see! Thing is, I didn't really expect people to... expect anything from the game, since it's reeally fanservic-y towards girl characters. I mean, their boobs don't exactly jiggle at my face but the clothes are way too tight. Do most of the girls even know you can wear a skirt that's long and not just two pieces of fabric in front and back ? Yeah...

as for the rest

i bitch about Fatui all the time but I'm just joking mostly. if russian government officials were to be offended, i'd just say "that's an accurate portrayal. u're evil". after all, people from снежная are still people, not monsters. the hilichurls thing is probably the worst, and what's even worse is that i had associated them with native americans somewhat before knowing what they were referenced from. we have so much racism to unlearn. also i've heard Paimon referring to Kaeya as "tan" so does he even count as dark-skinned? i'm all for having more dark-skinned characters! im glad people are pushing game developers to "do better" instead of just throwing accusations on the fans of the game like i assumed it happened. let's hope they'll do better!

i was pleasantly surprised by body diversity amongst NPC knights, so I am really hoping for a fat playable character. will that happen? I don't know...



babushka(he/she, он/она/)
naiad(she/her or they/them)
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q2k

In my heart, always.


babushka(he/she, он/она/)
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BPD traits - are people with BPD good or bad?

There's a giant stigma out there around BPD. Our mental illness doesn't make us want to hurt others, but it makes it harder for us to handle our emotions, including the negative ones, it also subjects us to overwhelming fear of abandonment and distorts the way we view people around us, making us unintentionally manipulative and emotionally unstable, which can be a huge drain of our loved ones as they're struggling to maintain their own stability. There's also, apparently, the romantization of BPD. There isn't a lot of it, and it doesn't involve romanticizing potentially toxic behaviours. Instead, this romantization suggests that people with BPD are the only ones that are capable of a true, deeper love, extreme loyality to the point of complete selflessness - something one desires in a partner or a friend, and something that people without BPD just aren't able to feel. And high sensitivity of people with BPD often leads them to becoming some sort of an artist, and the romantization of mental illness in artists isn't new.

So, does BPD make you bad? Or good? Do positives outweigh the negatives?

Short answer, no, no, wrong question. BPD doesn't make you bad or good, it makes you show symptoms of BPD, just as depression doesn't make you bad or good, just depressed.

Now let's first examine the character traits we think are good or bad. Loyality, for example. Imagine a partner who is loving and loyal to you - but maybe a little to extreme? They are always there to help you before you even say you need help, they jump ahead to save you from various troubles and always end up in trouble themselves, they seem to put their life on the line for you and you don't know how to handle it. You feel like you owe them, but they never give you the chance to repay this debt. Their life slowly collapses as they neglect their needs to please you, and you feel like you are responsible for it. You're overwhelmed, but you can't walk away - they love you so much, you're afraid it will break their heart and literally kill them.

Now imagine having a partner who is selfish. Well, at least that's what people say when they learn that your partner says " I put myself and my needs first". They've cut toxic people out of their life and they'll encourage you to do the same. As they give you flowers and see your happy smile, they say "well, seeing you smile makes me happy, so i wanna see it more. And seeing you sad makes me upset, but now you're not sad, and I'm not upset anymore". You don't have to worry about them getting in trouble or getting hurt, because they know better to take care of themselves. They will tell you what they want for their birthday without you trying to guess and getting scared to guess wrong.

Okay, okay, I see, you say, character traits are complex, we just saw a bad partner who's loyal and a good partner who's selfish, now who of them has BPD?

And the answer is both of them can have it! Also both of them can be mentally fine. See, first of all, BPD manifests very differently. Secondly, it doesn't really give you... character traits? I mean, it heavily influences your behaviour, but... BPD can make me feel intense love and also intense hatred for the same people in different circumstances - so should i call myself "loving" or "hateful"? Another symptom of mine is feeling emptiness in place where my personality should be - do i even HAVE character traits? If you insist everything, including you, must be inherently good or bad, that is so-called "black-and-white thinking" - a symptom of BPD and other mental illnesses. Here's a simple test for you - bad people don't usually question themselves at all.

So I'm a good person, you ask? Yeah!

Oh, you have one more question. What is it? Are you a good person because of BPD, or despite it?

Neither. You're a good person with BPD. Just a person with BPD.

Everything else is up to you. Go on, create yourself.


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